Wednesday, November 2, 2011

The Great Communion ~ Why We Exist

Cosmic Nest
From the Hubble Telescope News Pages:
"Called a light echo, the expanding illumination of a dusty cloud around the star has been revealing remarkable structures ever since the star suddenly brightened for several weeks in early 2002." This Light Echo is around a red supergiant star named V838. The Red Giants are the oldest stars in the universe, and from them, stardust made its way to Earth in the form of minerals that are essential to human life, vital contents of our bodies, potassium, calcium and iron. They also give us gold.

Cosmic Child

My bones
Bones of the old
Red Stars!

Alla Renée Bozarth
Stars in Your Bones,
North Star Press of St. Cloud 1990
and Moving to the Edge of the World,
iUniverse 2000.

The Bosom of Heaven

Why We Exist
Before the Beginning
there was only the

And the One
said, “I’m bored.
And lonesome.

“I think I’ll break
into a googolplex
of pieces to infinity
and give Myself amnesia
in some of those pieces
and then see what happens!”

And that is how
the Universe came
to be —

This sweet excitement,
the divine breaking
that allows
a lonesome God
to relate, relate,
relate to an infinity
of diverse beings,
each of whom is trying
to remember something
terribly important
about itself.

Some succeed better
than others. 
And quicker.

Sometimes this leaves
us howling in agonies
of forgetfulness and

But sometimes we remember,
from tadpoles to comets,
and we wag our tails.
     Alla Renée Bozarth 
Accidental Wisdom  
iUniverse 2003

[alternate titles: Infinity and Stars in Your Bones]
The small plot of ground
on which you were born
cannot be expected
to stay forever
the same.
Earth changes,
and home
becomes different

You took flesh
from clay
but the clay
did not come
from just one

To feel alive,
important, and safe,
know your own waters
and hills, but know

You have stars
in your bones
and oceans
in blood.

You have opposing
terrain in each eye.

You belong to the land
and sky of your first cry,
you belong to infinity.
                                                                                                   Alla Renée Bozarth
From the audiotapes, Dance for Me When I Die and Reading Out Loud to God {under the title, “Stars in Your Bones,” from which the book of poems and paintings was later named}, Alla Renée Bozarth, Wisdom House, copyright 1990;  Stars in Your Bones: Emerging Signposts on Our Spiritual Journeys, Alla Bozarth, Julia Barkley and Terri Hawthorne, North Star Press of St. Cloud 1990 {out of print}; This Mortal Marriage: Poems of Love, Lament and Praise, Alla Renée Bozarth, iUniverse, copyright 2003. All rights reserved. 

The poem "Belonging" was put to music along with William Stafford's poem, "Ask Me," by St. Paul, Minnesota composer, Steve Heitzeg, commissioned in 2000 by the people of Grand Forks, North Dakota for a ceremony of healing following the destruction and rebuilding of their town after the catastrophic Red River flood of 1997:

What the River Says  [the album]

Composed 1999
Duration 15 min
Instrumentation SATB chorus, piano and percussion
Text Alla Renee Bozarth, Steve Heitzeg, William Stafford
Commissioned by The Grand Forks Master Chorale through a Continental Harmony Grant
First Performance Grand Forks Master Chorale; James Rodde, conductor, Grand Forks, ND, 27 February 2000

"Belonging"  was presented as a reading in Aurora Chorus's winter concert,  "Stars In Your Bones," December 2007, in Portland, Oregon, titled after a beautiful phrase from this poem and the book by the same name.

These Are the Realms of Becoming 

Thanks to Casaundra Williams Bennett for naming the image,
           “the Great Cosmic Pouch.”          

The Great Cosmic Pouch holds
and carries and is forevering the worlds,
while we within them are mere time fetuses
forming ourselves to be born.

        Alla Renée Bozarth 

The Frequency of Light
Copyright 2013

Spacetime~ A Womb with a View

We are time fetuses,
wrapped in the sphere of mortal beings,
crowded among others also here,
unaware of the More around us,
the reality Beyond, the Greater Life
that awaits us~~ as the fetus is unaware
of older relatives, history, color, landscape,
the patterns of geese in flight, mangoes, movies,
music, geometry, logical positivism, the smell of grass
and the ocean, the sensations of surfing or flying an airplane,
grief, laughter, its mother or father as human beings (or hummingbirds
or trees or microbes or elephants or moons or stars)~~
though, as an embryo in a woman’s womb sometimes, without understanding
language, responds warmly to the sound of its father’s voice
crooning to it, or reading Winnie the Pooh or Shakespeare,
or as it may recognize its sister’s poke in the ribs and shouts of greeting,
and distinguish between its mother’s indigestion and elation~~
so we have fleeting moments of feeling, suggesting Something More
beyond our knowing, and that is when souls in the Great Communion
are attending us. To say that after we die from our present identities
we will be taken up in a cloud, met by old and new friends, taught the ropes
of Paradise~~ Well, how could a fetus know what to expect,
the Wonder of it, for which there is no translatable description?
Still, Eternity is always pregnant with us, always loving us,
preparing surprises beyond our imagining for us,
and meanwhile feeding us all the means of health and happiness
that it can, and letting us know that we are already part of it,
that throughout our mortal lives, every moment and all the time,
we belong, are known, and are necessary
to something more than ourselves.

        Alla Renée Bozarth
The Frequency of Light
          Copyright 2013

Time Party

Life is a party.
People arrive
and are introduced.
Things happen.
Conversations begin.
Future contact is planned.
Alliances form.
Some people dance.
Some are too shy
to engage.
Some mingle with everyone.
Some take refuge in one
or two intimate encounters.
Some tune out with toxic
substances, publicly partaking
in slow suicide.
Some play the fool.
Some take care of others.
Outside, weather happens.
The world continues
with its own silence
and noise. Children are born
and begin their own party.
Later, some of them
will come to this one.
Inside, the party goes on.
Some people
have a good time.
Some people
have a bad time.
Some leave early.
Some wait for the dawn.
Sooner or later,
everyone goes home.

         Alla Renée Bozarth
The Frequencies of Sound 
          Copyright 2013

Time Gives

Time gives itself so 
that we have it 
to use well

Create lives and
shape destinies

Develop our talents
and use our skills
for the greater good

Grow into our true selves,
learn to be kind, learn to be
still, learn to move gracefully

Whatever remains unfinished
that cannot be finished by others
will be translated into some other
form in time in this universe or

Whatever unhealed wounds
cannot be seared or closed
gently can be healed in another
life or eternity

Whatever injury or illness
cannot be mended or cured
will be mended or cured
by oblivion or Heaven

Time heals all, 
at least when it ends.

            Alla Renée Bozarth
  My Blessed Misfortunes
             Copyright 2013   
Time and I

It is four days past Christmas
and I feel finally ready for the Fourth of July,
or maybe merely the middle of June
approaching a midsummer dream.

How am I to keep from despair, knowing
as I do that I will never catch up again?
I am the child left behind empty-handed,
and time is the older child running ahead
on the beach with the kite.

Perhaps I shall sit down and watch,
mouth open in awe at the beauty of it,
the colors, how they change and gleam
as the wind dances them upward and the sun
glistens in play . . . And my eyes kiss all of them,
these three, time and the wind and the sun,
and I am happy to be here, seeing everything
there is to see in the world right now.

And suddenly, I am the kite in the scene,
and I am perfectly happy, joyous, knowing
that I am now carried where I could not plan
or decree, and the design as it happens
perfectly suits me. And the singing and laughing
burst out of me as tears sting on my cheeks
in the salt air, and I do not care if I shall ever
be on time for anything less important again.

                 Alla Renée Bozarth
     Diamonds in a Stony Field 
                  Copyright 2013

Everything bears the property of love.

     Sitting on a rock in the Salmon River
            watching first leaves fall . . . 
From sunhigh mountain treetops 
upstream the rapids carry 
old branches to the sea, 
their leaves landlocked already.

Why so soon?
Not soon at all—
your time is complete.
And so is mine.

You rest in sunlight
before transforming
into earth and air. 

You dissolve your leafy form
and recompose into a thousand bodies.

Nothing ever ends.
Everything is always beginning.

Shall I find myself tomorrow
shining in a waterdrop
on a piece of moss
on the bark of a tree
that once was you?

Green into burntred,
old leaf, our biodance began
millennia ago, but today
I am glad to see you clearly
for the first time
with just these eyes,
my changing

Your bronze body turns
to powder
with a crack
beneath my foot.

Part of you has already become me.
You are on your new way.
You will be back.
And so will I.
So will I..       

                                                                     Alla Renée Bozarth


From Stars in Your Bones: Emerging Signposts on Our Spiritual Journeys,

Alla Bozarth, Julia Barkley and Terri Hawthorne, North Star Press of St. Cloud 19990; and This Mortal Marriage: Poems of Love, Lament and Praise, Alla Renée Bozarth, iUniverse 2003

Click on any image to enlarge it or view a slide show of all of them on this post, enlarged.

North face of Mt. St. Helens, with wasteland desert where forests once were, 
around the heart-shaped Spirit Lake in the center.

The Interior Landscape
in You I am lost,
desolate, not knowing
where to focus, and no place to hide—
then slowly my eyes adjust
to Your subtle shapes,
Your toned-down colors
and see You as both
rest and the struggle
to learn how to endure

I will not live in You
through lengths of days
but I will visit You
fearlessly in times of
wilderness emptying—
Then we are one.



oh, deep heart of myself,
the streams of sunlight to warm the soul,
the shadow places to hide in,
the wet, mossy places to rest in,
the emerald places, the jade places,
the teal places, the brown places
and places blackened with ash,
oh, home of the Great Mother
where sanctuary lives—
where the wild gardens of God thrive

I trade the breath of life abundantly with Your trees
and the holy ground of Your vegetation—
So we are one.


oh, Great Seas, Grandmothers
of all species, we human beings
in all our colors and voices
travel across Your waters
guided by stars
and play on Your shores—

From You we all come,
we Earthlings— we bless You,
and we are one.


flowing, always
flowing on, sight seer
and life giver, singing
Your song, forever,
we are one.
The Salmon River, flowing from a Mt. Hood Glacier.

great high places
that bring up
what nourishes us
from the deep places,
that awaken and frighten us
and remind us to make room,
that teach us to be respectful,
generous with places to fix the eye,
Your great hard, solid mass a mere
window to Heaven—

You inspire everything in me
to lift and to lighten and be
unafraid for all to see—
I grow and we become one.
Mount Hood, in itself and in my soul.

the living room of the soul,
the place of home, of crops
that feed the masses,
of flowers that feed the senses,
and the senses are open doorways
to the soul—
where we are forever one.

Alla Renée Bozarth
The Map of Longing in Quartet © 2016

Scroll through this link page to see "Bare Heart" and "Heartland" as well.
Graphic art by Susan Lind-Kanne
with selected poems by Alla Renée Bozarth 
at Bear Blessings Soul Cards.

A Creature’s Prayer for True Community

O Mysterious One,
You who longed us
into reality, guide us now
into its fullest and best.
O Lonely One,
You who desired us
into our being, bless us now
with kindly kinship—

  Let there be between us
  and growing among us
  that trusting spirit
  of true cooperation,
  whose creative power springs from
  mutual good will,
  reciprocal expression
  and convivial intention—

    and manifests in that luminous outcome
    that is Your Own dream coming true. Amen!

                 Alla Renée Bozarth

From The Frequency of Light, copyright 2014.

Bear’s Twilight Prayer

Just now, among the nuthatches
and crows, I went out to pray.
Among the wildflowers with small deer
and their mothers I prayed.

With injured trees and moles
and gray rabbits I prayed.

With purple kale and white cosmos
holding still under first stars
in the sapphire sky I prayed.

With red leaves of liquid amber
and the fallen leaves of golden walnut
I prayed.  With the beautiful corpses
of summer I prayed.  With waking coyote
and motors of cars returning
weary humans to their evening homes
I prayed.  With Great Mystery I yearned
for their well-being, I yearned
for their happiness.

An old bear crying in the wilderness,
furry prophet manged among the wildflowers,
bare patches of pink skin shining golden
in the gloaming light, blending in
with the last brave roses in bud,
and thorny as their tired brown branches.
Here I kneel and roll and sleep.
And breathing in the crisp air
of crimson autumn, I pray for Creation.
I pray for Creator.  And my prayer
is naming Them by my own secret names
of gratefulness.  My prayer is holding their own
true sacred names in silent empty space.
My prayer is enjoying their company.
My prayer is being glad to be one of them.

               Alla Renée Bozarth                   
From Quartet, copyright 2011.

Toklot Bear

Below~ Spiral Galaxy from the Hubble Space Camera.

*    *    *    *    *

She Loves It All 

when god was a girl she loved
to play dress up with hydrogen
and nitrogen, she wiggled her hips
and blew kisses from her voluptuous
lips and wiggled her fingers to toss the stars~
she juggled them and tied ribbons on them
when she wanted to create new dimensions,
to open all the directions she hurled them like a salad
that no one told her not to play with, so she giggled
and played until all the ingredients stuck on the ceiling of sky,
but then she’d coax them back into action and let them decide
where to go and how far and when or if to land, and

she would go far out, way, way out to play
with her dolls, the gaseous, luminous balls of delight,
hold them in her cool hands for a millennial minute
to turn them into planets and things of that sort,
with what we call substance, solid stuff

but there was precious little of that compared
to the zillions of light years and miles of raw energy
she stores in those closets disguised as nothingness,
dark matter if it’s just out there and going nowhere
(we think), and dark energy if it seems to push
the many verses ever outward from each other~
for epic cosmic poems gone lyrical and operatic wild

there is always music as silence and vice versa
going on in the movement between beings

and yes, she likes those comets, never lost
her taste for new things, plays with galaxies and constellations
of beautiful toys and wears them like jewelry in living colors,
lots of necklaces and rings, baubles on Christmas trees, then turns them
into mirrors of herself, better than hot melted many-colored glass spinning
in the fire~ though sometimes she is shy and covers them with night invisible, 
that brilliant dark country that covers the map of heaven, and she does it
the better to show her curls, her graceful arms, her reach into fire for love,
her laughter-made comets~ and sometimes she braids their tails

and sometimes she says, you are simply gorgeous,
delicious as roses on a birthday cake, scrumptious
as a coarse lemon poppy seed wedding cake with
thick passion fruit frosting, with gold leaves and silver
bangles and pearls, with marionberries and cream

and she then gets distracted and remembers it’s lunch time
and she cooks up something new to serve variously
here and there around the place~ and to her, the future
is not in front or ahead or out there but inside, always
inside everything, where the past is pretending to govern
what we call the present but she calls Beloved, and where
nothing yet imagined is just about to happen

next week we’ll talk about when god was a mountain,
then how all the kinds of rocks became her feet

until she wanted to run again with a bird’s eye view
and became a baby giraffe
and later, about how she tried on the whole zoo,
and then settled down for several millennia
as an entire evergreen forest, yes,
the ancient sequoias, the redwoods mingling
with blue spruce, and then she became an etude,
a fantasie-impromptu, a symphony, a garland
of roses, a garden of petunias and pansies
and marigolds which she served in salads
to strengthen the blood of her mammals,
and dandelions, which doubled as tonic and
oh~ maybe she’d like to be a mermaid
and swim all the seas, yes, that would
be fine, she says

and about then god the old woman decides it’s time
to figure out what to do about all the beings who suffer
in pain, sorrow, confusion, anger or fear, which she knows
from being all of them, and asks us please to pray for her . . .     

                               Alla Renée Bozarth
              The Frequencies of Sound, copyright 2013.

Images are from the Internet.

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