The
Sun, with all those planets revolving around it and dependent on it,
can still ripen a bunch of grapes
as if it had nothing else in the universe to do.
can still ripen a bunch of grapes
as if it had nothing else in the universe to do.
Galileo
Galilei
Glorious, Galileo! A perfect example of how scientists think like
artists~ playful, original, creative, easily enchanted by the Real
Wonders within and around us~ all moments of the Divine made visible, audible, delectable, aromatic and palpable in Creation.
The Deep Deep Faith of an Evolutionary Scientist
God’s preferred vehicle of creation is evolution.
On the opening day of my astronomy class
at Northwestern University when Professor Hynek
leaped onto the lecture platform, opened his arms wide
and said, “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was—
and said, “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was—
Hydrogen!” he was speaking of the Voice of God
in the first split second of Creation.
From a state of Pure Energy, God pushed,
and in the push came a breath, and God pushed again,
and from the breath out popped a single ion of hydrogen,
and God pushed again, and from the single ion of hydrogen
out popped the Universe, and God breathed again, and the Universe
began to radiate out like an egg cracked open and spilled, and God
said, “I shall never stop breathing, for this breath becomes song
and the whole dance of creation, and it is a wonder, a beauty,
and I shall call it Beloved to Infinity, and as the parts die
and others are born, I shall lovingly draw the old parts
back into Myself and infuse the new parts with
blessings, and I shall grow more blessings
as everything blooms and becomes.”
From that first effort of the Holy One to create
Matter and Time from Divine Energy, to utter
the first note of the Canticle of Creation,
to conceive the Sacred Story of Everything,
to give birth to the Cosmic Drama,
came forth the unimaginable wonder
of the Mystical Body of Christ
made manifest in Being.
And the Body of Christ grows ceaselessly into Itself,
for Divine Nature is illimitable, unimaginable, Infinite,
Eternally More.
God is becoming More
through becoming creation.
Intuit the Fact of Pure Energy that is More Love,
both darkness and light and neither of these, nor no one thing
in isolation from any other, no stray atom, but all stray atoms,
no stray star but all stray stars, no stray runaway child but all
stray runaway children.
And so the Breath of God breathes out to become
the best and the worst days of your life,
the most outrageous happiness and
the depths of grief beyond words,
and the working times and
the waiting times in between.
The Word of God unfolds forever, enfolds all.
The Word of God is faithful and forever alive.
The Word of God sings the song of cosmos, one note unfolding
into the next, a chord changing itself into an arpeggio, a sonata,
a fugue, a symphony. As the evolution of a cantata into a choir,
a concerto into a symphony, with the emergence of soloists
suddenly appearing from the hiding wings of What If and How—
God brings forth constantly changing creatures by means
of co-evolution, where everything adapts moment by moment,
eon by eon, to everything else~ what came before, what is now,
what shall be.
what shall be.
Think of free-form dance during fair weather that turns
from darkness to blinding light, from soft rain to lightning and hail,
from storm to birdsongs and caressing warmth of the sun,
think of mountain ice becoming a waterfall, of rivers spilling into the sea.
Cosmology is the Divine Invention, the Divine Invitation
for us to wake up and pay attention, to enter the story
fully, lively, ready . . . to become part of the wonder,
to feel and think through the miracle, to experience the gift
of Being, to puzzle, experiment, explore and interact with,
to feel ourselves becoming, becoming with, always changing,
others around us who are also changing, and the dance opens up
into a circle of many, then a pas de deux, a solo, a silence,
then over again. Many, many layered, intersecting dances of life
all at once, each slowly evolving into new ones.
Being human and afraid, we still remember the perfect time
before birth, before responsibility, before uncertainty,
and crave a return to a static universe where nothing is asked of us
but to be, where judgment does not exist, nor loss nor tragedy,
where failure is a foreign word and anything difficult does not exist.
But we are born, we somehow bear having been born, we make the best of it.
This world full of beauty and also of random disorder, illness, injury,
ignorance and hate, the resentful rage of revenge against life
for having been born— is still our place of becoming,
of choice, of adaptation and Grace, for God
never stops being born in our lives.
Holy Spirit inspires and the Word of God still breathes out and says,
Let’s become something wonderful and new!
It can be done by a smile, by a breath,
by simple consent to be here
for a day or an hour,
for a year . . .
And from there, or wherever we are,
to be surprised.
From the moment we open our eyes, we are discovering wonders.
Our senses work with the brain’s powers of making sense, and from seeing,
hearing, touching, smelling, tasting, intuiting, thinking and feeling, the brain
creates perceptions, making sense, rightly or wrongly, of what we experience.
As exploration and discovery unfold, we correct and revise our perceptions.
The integrative mind does not perceive conflict between complementary
dynamics, but how they cooperate in the Divine Mind, how God outers
the Word anew throughout space and time, continues to make all things
the Word anew throughout space and time, continues to make all things
new, and that creation flows through streams of evolution, so that Christ
dying and rising each moment, Grace can be free, in all things bound,
always be free. Therefore, God’s preferred vehicle of Grace-full creation
is naturally evolution.
dying and rising each moment, Grace can be free, in all things bound,
always be free. Therefore, God’s preferred vehicle of Grace-full creation
is naturally evolution.
Alla Renée Bozarth
The Frequencies of Sound, copyright 2012. All rights reserved.
for Carl Sagan and J. Allen Hynek,
my astronomy professor
at the moment of death
there are no atheists
the great astronomer
would have said~
the great astronomer had said~
there is no god necessary
to this self-made miracle
of our spacetime universe,
and matter regenerates itself
without beginning or end
to infinity
his colleague said,
in the beginning was the word
and the word was . . .
hydrogen!
the great scientist said~
there is no intelligent life beyond
our own, in or out of the universe
his colleague said,
in the beginning was the word
and the word was hydrogen,
and when that single ion
cracked open like an egg,
the cosmos were born
the great scientist said~
I believe in what I see
and know, the billions
and billions of stars,
and it is more
than enough
and then he told his colleague
that in secret, not to be discredited,
he knew there was intelligence beyond us~
and later when he learned the one thing
he’d never studied, that he, a mere mortal man
after all, was dying, he said~ yes, I believe
an intelligent Being brought us forth and even
that it loves us, that we are not alone
in our knowing, perhaps not even
superior, I believe that god exists
and soon I will learn the features
of infinite Love
and his colleague said,
in the beginning is the word
and the word is Love
Alla Renée Bozarth
Diamonds in a Stony Field
Copyright 2012.
Copyright 2012.
Voyager Crosses into
the Final Frontier
the voyager left home today.
all packed up with cheap, old-fashioned
equipment, cameras, sound machines,
gadgets for sending messages back home,
and the latest jet-pack style equivalent
technology so no other fuel will be necessary.
first off there was a stop at the front gate
where an irresistible Martian sunset was
holding court, and we had to watch
the trine rise of Venus, Jupiter and Earth
lifting over the horizon~ God, it was gorgeous,
three stunning pearls in a coral sea, and who could guess
how different their size and composition were?
we got some lovely pictures of the Milky Way
and all the other planets en route. turns out
some of those rings around Saturn are braided!
Babe’s been out of the house for 40 years already.
word is, the final departure from our heliosphere happened
about a year ago. we got one garbled effort at Goodbye while
our traveler was crossing the horizon field beyond our ability
to hear anything further . . .
the voyager has two 30 foot long whip antennae
extending outwardly in a V, so as not to miss anything . . .
and using antique transmission, they were able to pick up enough
from the surrounding density of space plasma, and had the great luck
to be helped by two huge solar flares at that moment which excited the plasma
particles enough to let their vibrations register on the voyager’s instruments,
converting the energy into audio signals for us, a lovely last little chirp
of So Long that echoed back briefly, and then abruptly went out
as Voyager entered interstellar space forever.
the next thing Voyager will see will be the Oort Cloud on the outer edge
of what we almost know, the gauzy sphere where so many comets are born~
that lovely cocoon-like nest, that filmy shell of light and wonder.
Voyager I will reach the inner edge of the Oort Cloud in about 300 years
and could take another 30,000 years or so to leave it. lately, our traveler
has been bombarded with a force of cosmic rays, while the solar rays
have plummeted, though the magnetic fields around Voyager
have not changed direction as expected.
observers focused on watching the magnetic fields
to tell them when Voyager left the solar winds’ domain,
but they neglected the significance of plasma density.
in so many ways, this trip is surprising the scientists,
defying many human presumptions . . .
as reality will do.
our brave explorer is now 11.6 billion miles from home.
at the very least, it disorients, it dizzies, it boggles.
at most, it evokes wonder beyond words . . .
Weeeeeeeeee YHHEW !
Alla Renée Bozarth
the voyager left home today.
all packed up with cheap, old-fashioned
equipment, cameras, sound machines,
gadgets for sending messages back home,
and the latest jet-pack style equivalent
technology so no other fuel will be necessary.
first off there was a stop at the front gate
where an irresistible Martian sunset was
holding court, and we had to watch
the trine rise of Venus, Jupiter and Earth
lifting over the horizon~ God, it was gorgeous,
three stunning pearls in a coral sea, and who could guess
how different their size and composition were?
we got some lovely pictures of the Milky Way
and all the other planets en route. turns out
some of those rings around Saturn are braided!
Babe’s been out of the house for 40 years already.
word is, the final departure from our heliosphere happened
about a year ago. we got one garbled effort at Goodbye while
our traveler was crossing the horizon field beyond our ability
to hear anything further . . .
the voyager has two 30 foot long whip antennae
extending outwardly in a V, so as not to miss anything . . .
and using antique transmission, they were able to pick up enough
from the surrounding density of space plasma, and had the great luck
to be helped by two huge solar flares at that moment which excited the plasma
particles enough to let their vibrations register on the voyager’s instruments,
converting the energy into audio signals for us, a lovely last little chirp
of So Long that echoed back briefly, and then abruptly went out
as Voyager entered interstellar space forever.
the next thing Voyager will see will be the Oort Cloud on the outer edge
of what we almost know, the gauzy sphere where so many comets are born~
that lovely cocoon-like nest, that filmy shell of light and wonder.
Voyager I will reach the inner edge of the Oort Cloud in about 300 years
and could take another 30,000 years or so to leave it. lately, our traveler
has been bombarded with a force of cosmic rays, while the solar rays
have plummeted, though the magnetic fields around Voyager
have not changed direction as expected.
observers focused on watching the magnetic fields
to tell them when Voyager left the solar winds’ domain,
but they neglected the significance of plasma density.
in so many ways, this trip is surprising the scientists,
defying many human presumptions . . .
as reality will do.
our brave explorer is now 11.6 billion miles from home.
at the very least, it disorients, it dizzies, it boggles.
at most, it evokes wonder beyond words . . .
Weeeeeeeeee YHHEW !
Alla Renée Bozarth
The
Frequencies of Sound
Copyright 2013.
“On the electrodynamics of moving bodies” Albert Einstein, June 1905
Copyright 2013.
“On the electrodynamics of moving bodies” Albert Einstein, June 1905
yes, solid, liquid or gaseous matter converts to raw energy—
fat becomes fuel and a game of tennis or a term paper—
petrol converts to raw energy and becomes a trip to the
islands
what seems most inert has greatest potential
for energy to work its wonders or mayhem
the trick is to find the most amount of energy
in the smallest amount of mass, and the most energy
in any union of particles is in the core bond. Think of the
single ion
that was the cosmic egg, still unfolding multiverses of new
beings—
convert that thought to poems, tears, kisses or laughter,
convert that thought to a new invention or a beautiful lunch
think of the diamond worth millions that must be cut with
precision
or shatters, the priceless power and beauty of love’s
energy, its radiance
revealed when worn as a gift from the Beloved to the
Beloved
in their adamantine bond.
if less than two ounces of mass was required
for the energy which destroyed two great cities,
brought tragedy to hundreds of thousands
of human families and other species also,
but ended a hideous war—
then what chance has any of us to avoid
being struck by lightning in one form or another?
the power is where the bond is strongest.
take care how we use it, people.
use it for nurture, not nuclear nightmare.
scientist Brian Greene demonstrates: all of New
York City
has less energy than
the newspaper in your hand. read it, you hold the whole world
in your hands and take in all its oceans of sorrow and rivers of light
with your eyes. read it with comprehension and change the
world for better
in your own small marvelous way, today.
Alla Renée Bozarth
The Frequency of Light
Copyright 2013
Create Joy
The pain passes, but the beauty remains.
Renoir to Matisse
Suppose you have a chronic affliction.
{Who doesn’t?} Suppose it distracts you
from your life and you don’t want it
in your life. You want to say, I am more
than this misery, I am more than this body.
Go ahead, then. Live through the pain but
create around it, create so much that is beautiful
and wonderful and marvelous, so much that is
meaningful and helpful to others and also to you,
create so that the pain will not have a chance
to tempt you. It will not be able to get a word or a groan in
long enough or deep enough to deceive you
into giving it your identity. Instead, you will be
what you create. And you will always be
what you create. And what you create will be
for those you love, for the strangers who will meet you
long after your pain has died forever with your recycled body,
and they will find your clear, radiantly healthy spirit,
and they will say, Thanks. This is lovely. This is just what I needed.
Even if you are unable to create with your hands,
create awareness with your mind, create insight,
create peace with your spirit by letting it be drawn out
and beyond the window pane into the fields and sky, the marketplace,
the festivals, across the oceans, to other planets and between the stars.
Remember the world that needs more love and love it,
love individual beings where you find them,
move your mind out into it and travel through it
with tender eyes and an appetite for everything marvelous.
Let the pain melt away with your mind’s love
in the form of self-transcending compassion,
even when you cannot smile or speak or think.
In your deep meditation that happens by intention below the pain~
will your burdens to become blessings, like compost in the earth,
like sooted snow in late winter, yielding to the sun.
One inner word is all it takes, as simple as, “Here,” or
“Help,” between breaths. It will be done.
You will have made your pain into something more,
a connection that keeps alive your bond with all living beings.
And from below, their own soul roots will quiver
with a feeling of having been strengthened and blessed.
You will have been part of everything, still contributing,
reverberating that one intention throughout time and space
beyond your own body, mind and mortal life.
And that will be your forever joy.
Even after there will be no more human beings to experience your spirit,
it will be part of the Song of the Universe to infinity,
part of the Holy One forever.
Alla Renée Bozarth
Learning to Dance in Limbo and Purgatory Papers, copyright 2012.
when god was a girl she loved
to play dress up with hydrogen
and nitrogen, she wiggled her hips
and blew kisses from her voluptuous
lips and wiggled her fingers to toss the stars~
she juggled them and tied ribbons on them
when she wanted to create new dimensions,
to open all the directions she hurled them like a salad
that no one told her not to play with, so she giggled
and played until all the ingredients stuck on the ceiling of
sky,
but then she’d coax them back into action and let them
decide
where to go and how far and when or if to land, and
she would go far out, way, way out to play
with her dolls, the gaseous, luminous balls of delight,
hold them in her cool hands for a millennial minute
to turn them into planets and things of that sort,
with what we call substance, solid stuff
but there was precious little of that compared
to the zillions of light years and miles of raw energy
she stores in those closets disguised as nothingness,
dark matter if it’s just out there and going nowhere
(we think), and dark energy if it seems to push
the many verses ever outward from each other~
for epic cosmic poems gone lyrical and operatic wild
there is always music as silence and vice versa
going on in the movement between beings
and yes, she likes those comets, never lost
her taste for new things, plays with galaxies and
constellations
of beautiful toys and wears them like jewelry in living
colors,
lots of necklaces and rings, baubles on Christmas trees,
then turns them
into mirrors of herself, better than hot melted many-colored
glass spinning
in the fire~ though sometimes she is shy and covers them with
night invisible,
that brilliant dark country that covers the map of heaven, and
she does it
the better to show her curls, her graceful arms, her reach
into fire for love,
her laughter-made comets~ and sometimes she braids their
tails
and sometimes she says, you are simply gorgeous,
delicious as roses on a birthday cake, scrumptious
as a coarse lemon poppy seed wedding cake with
thick passion fruit frosting, with gold leaves and silver
bangles and pearls, with marionberries and cream
and she then gets distracted and remembers it’s lunch time
and she cooks up something new to serve variously
here and there around the place~ and to her, the future
is not in front or ahead or out there but inside, always
inside everything, where the past is pretending to govern
what we call the present but she calls Beloved, and where
nothing yet imagined is just about to happen
next week we’ll talk about when god was a mountain,
then how all the kinds of rocks became her feet
until she wanted to run again with a bird’s eye view
and became a baby giraffe
and later, about how she tried on the whole zoo,
and then settled down for several millennia
as an entire evergreen forest, yes,
the ancient sequoias, the redwoods mingling
with blue spruce, and then she became an etude,
a fantasie-impromptu, a symphony, a garland
of roses, a garden of petunias and pansies
and marigolds which she served in salads
to strengthen the blood of her mammals,
and dandelions, which doubled as tonic and
oh~ maybe she’d like to be a mermaid
and swim all the seas, yes, that would
be fine, she says
and about then god the old woman decides it’s time
to figure out what to do about all the beings who suffer
in pain, sorrow, confusion, anger or fear, which she knows
from being all of them, and asks us please to pray for her .
. .
Alla Renée Bozarth
The
Frequencies of Sound, copyright 2013.
Music is everywhere
music is in sound and
music is in silence
Therefore I dance
to silence I dance
to tears I dance
to laughter I dance
to groans and moans
I dance to Rachmaninoff
and Bach, to Beethoven
and Dylan, to Carole King
and Marvin Gay and to everything
composed, harmonious and played
Dance then to birdsong and waterfall,
to the spring scented forest and garden,
to snow and the rain, to river and ocean,
with desert or mountain, I dance
For the dancing mind can dance
forward or backward in time and space also,
indeed to outer and inner dimensions uncommonly known
I dance with my eyes,
I dance with one hand,
I dance clapping,
I dance with one foot
or one shoulder, my hair
dances with wind
I dance to poetry while hearing it,
I dance to poetry while reading it
aloud to the tree for whom I wrote it
As I dance around the lovely thing
with my hand or arm encircling
As Rumi danced his grief
and finally his joy around
the cool, smooth, sacred stone
until he warmed it with longing~
As Rumi danced around the pillar of loss
when his beloved teacher and friend
called Shams, The Sun, had died—
He danced to call back the Light
from the belly of darkness
that had swallowed the sky,
as now the Sufi dance after him
For Dance is the Song of the Body,
and Songs are the Dance of the Voice~
as both Move, Utter, Outer the Soul
I dance to the gospels
I dance to the psalms
I dance to a friend
I dance mostly and always
to God
Don’t let the limitations
of your body deter you,
dance with your mind,
dance with your soul
Feel free to join me
across great distances
of space and time
and dance on your own
Dance all by yourself
so no one will know
but you and the Beloved,
in whatever form you
experience the Beloved,
and let the Beloved
dance with You
Alla Renée Bozarth
I Am You
My third eye sees from inside God with a God’s Eye view
And your third eye sees from inside God with a God’s Eye view—
When you look with your Third Eye into mine, You see your Self, holy,
and when I look with my Third Eye into yours, I see my Self, holy—
Therefore, as I walk the earth
I say to the tree, I am You
I say to the fruit on the tree, I am You
I say to the solitary shell, I am You
I say to the creature once living there, I am You
I say to the bear, I am You
I say to the bird, I am You
I say to the flower, I am You
I say to the bee, I am You
I say to the storm cloud, I am You
I say to thunder, I am You
I say to the rain, I am You
I say to the waterfall, I am You
I say to the river, I am You
I say to the fire, I am You
I say to the mountain, I am You
I say to the desert, I am You
I say to the ocean, I am You
I say to the homeless person, I am You
I say to the millionaire, I am You
I say to the elegant poet on dialysis, I am You
I say to the caregiver, I am You
I say to the disabled person, I am You
I say to the ancient, I am You
I say to the city, I am You
I say to the student, I am You
I say to the teacher, I am You
I say to the farmer, I am You
I say to the prisoner, I am You
I say to the soldier, I am You
I say to the swimmer, I am You
I say to history, I am You
I say to the newborn as to the dying, I am You
I say to You, I am You
Alla Renée Bozarth
The Frequencies of Sound
Copyright 2012.
Marc Chagall, The Blue Violinist, 1947~ two images, one brighter and one truer, both brilliant coloration as always with this extraordinary Russian Jewish artist who emigrated to Paris~
Marc Chagall, The Blue Violinist, 1947
The Holy Agnostic
An Anonymous 20th Century Saint of the Open Road
If by God we mean that than which nothing greater can be conceived,
then we cannot conceive of that entity except as existing.
The Ontological Argument, St. Anselm of Canterbury, 1033-1109
He looked like he’d been on the rails all his days,
self-taught and of plain speaking intelligence,
with the features of Henry Fonda playing
Young Abraham Lincoln or in The Grapes of Wrath,
but older. Over campfire dinner his compadre asked,
“Do you believe in God?”
“That’s a complex question,” he ventured.
“If you mean do I give assent to the tenets
of any religion, No. If you mean do I have an idea
or cherish an image of a divine being who is merely
a larger version of ourselves, with all our vicious traits
of jealousy, small-minded exclusivity and petty revenge,
as well as our tender traits of forgiveness, mercy and generosity—
I especially say No. The former traits are too mean and small
and the latter go past our reckoning.
“If you mean do I want to lock God up
in some small and manageable box,
easy for human beings to predict and manipulate,
enlist on our side in any conflict, call upon to justify
our own rash judgments and childish grievances,
it’s definitely No.
“I recall the wisdom of someone who said
that the greatest limitation to learning
is the presumption of knowledge.
You see, I have the same hunger for that so-called
Wholly Other that I suppose everyone has instinctively,
the hunger that gets us in so much trouble and leads us to
hurt, maim and kill each other— God is love and I’ll kill anyone
whose idea of that is different from mine, is what that amounts to.
“My hunger for the Holy Unknown is so achingly intense
sometimes, greater than any physical hunger or hunger for human love,
that I don’t want to limit its fulfillment by defining the One I long for.
I want to stay as open as possible (I won’t be so foolish as to say
absolutely open, knowing my own humanity too well).
“Being open is the only way I can keep the wonder within me alive.
It’s my only chance for recognizing the One when It chooses ways
to show Itself to me. I hope it will be some kind of intimately personal
meeting, as overwhelming as falling in love. I hope it will have an intellectual
quality, though I realize my limited intellect may misguide my understanding
of the experience of a sacred encounter. I also sense that every encounter
is a sacred encounter if we go into it reverently, respectfully, carefully,
and above all, courageously, even passionately, but gently and
whenever possible if not always, non-violently.
“So my personal pledge to the Great Mysterious is
to carry no boxes to carve It up and stuff It into,
hording It for myself or the select few whom I might judge
to be worthy. And I also acknowledge that even if It makes Itself
unmistakably and specifically known to me in some way, my notions
of It will probably be as distorted as the next person’s, though I pray
(truly) that they will not be damaging or hurtful to others or myself,
nor would I use them as weapons against myself or others.
“Now, you may say that I’m an arrogant so-and-so
for not accepting someone else’s version of that Ultimate Being,
but I say positively No again, not arrogant, but realistic
in the acknowledgement that no human concepts or precepts
could come near to describing the Awesome Reality.
“Probably most of the metaphors work in themselves,
God the Mother, God the Father, God the Child, God the Friend,
God the Lover, God the Light, God the Word, God the Silence,
God the Creator, God the Redeemer, God the Spirit, God the Pure Energy—
and so on. But they only work when applied as metaphors, in the context
of the moment— and when they are made absolutes and become, any one
of them, literal and dogmatic, then they are like the letter of the law
that destroys the spirit, and instead of being life-giving, they stifle the soul
and paralyze its ability to receive The Real Thing.
that destroys the spirit, and instead of being life-giving, they stifle the soul
and paralyze its ability to receive The Real Thing.
“I am going to let you listen to something that may surprise you—
my agnostic prayer:
“Whoever You Are, first I want to tell you this— I love not knowing, but feeling
closer to You than air to skin, in the freedom of being open to Whoever and
Whatever You Are, as exquisitely mysterious as any breathtakingly beautiful
painting or flower. Bless all beings by helping them to be aware of Your Sacred
Mystery, and to receive it with a gracious humility, and if You can, help us
to love this astonishing life in all its sweet mysteries, and not lose faith in it
when it becomes difficult or horrifying. If I may, since it is my innate desire
to do so, I offer You my total unknowing, and with it, my thanks
for the intelligence and self-awareness You’ve given me, through which I have
this wonderful sense of You and my own desire for You. Somehow there is more
peace and happiness for me there than in any secure-making ideas that could be
put into words, and would therefore be limited and wrong.
Whatever You Are, as exquisitely mysterious as any breathtakingly beautiful
painting or flower. Bless all beings by helping them to be aware of Your Sacred
Mystery, and to receive it with a gracious humility, and if You can, help us
to love this astonishing life in all its sweet mysteries, and not lose faith in it
when it becomes difficult or horrifying. If I may, since it is my innate desire
to do so, I offer You my total unknowing, and with it, my thanks
for the intelligence and self-awareness You’ve given me, through which I have
this wonderful sense of You and my own desire for You. Somehow there is more
peace and happiness for me there than in any secure-making ideas that could be
put into words, and would therefore be limited and wrong.
“Yes, I know that even what I am saying now is too much, but I’m a talky animal
and have to start somewhere. I know You can’t interfere with free will, and You
allow chaos as the necessary destructive phase of the ongoing creative process.
allow chaos as the necessary destructive phase of the ongoing creative process.
I’m sure I don’t have to tell You that free will is difficult for us humans.
We’re mostly afraid of our freedom, terrified of making mistakes, and terrified
also that we have no idea what we want or need, but are being batted around
from illusion to delusion and back again.
also that we have no idea what we want or need, but are being batted around
from illusion to delusion and back again.
“A sense of being is as hard to come by as a sense of self or soul—
as impossible for some as it is natural for others.
There must be a way for us insecure and immature human beings to relax
without needing to sink into fixed and closed notions and rules,
other than the freeing rules of respect and kindness.
“And I don’t have to tell You that we hate chaos, though
we create plenty of it ourselves. We crave order and predictability,
though we can’t achieve them in our own lives very well.
The scientists assure us that this is the way the universe works, though,
and they tell us it’s trustworthy, so who are we to whine and complain?
Well, You know we are going to whine and complain anyway, no matter what.
I’m rambling, because I don’t have much else to say, so I’ll close for now
with another Thank You. I love being here, mosquitoes and hunger and all.
Logic dictates that, given chaos and free will, You can’t do much about suffering.
It’s up to us to alleviate it with our patience, kindness and intelligence.
You’re doing a great job, Whoever You Are, not that You need me to tell You,
but I enjoy telling You and hope that You enjoy Being You. Amen.”
Reporter’s Note: When every religious person achieves such holy agnosticism
as this true openness to the Holy One/ness or simply Great Mystery,
replacing exclusion and literalism with good will and wonderment,
replacing exclusion and literalism with good will and wonderment,
we’ll have the beginnings of Heaven on Earth.
Saint Francis and Siddhartha
Siddhartha Gautama, the once and future Buddha,
and Saint Francis of Assisi were the same,
for each man set out from a sheltered room
within the walls of opulence in later youth,
unwilling to be cut off by wealth from the world.
Each cringed, then, at his fate.
Each rebelled in a holy rebellion.
Each went over the wall
in a wide-eyed wonder of love for the world,
to take in all that was on the other side,
to marvel at all that lived—
with tears and cries and hunger,
with longing and surprise.
Each became a troubadour
and roamed the Earth
while singing souls awake.
And each became at-one with all
through holy renunciation, took on
voluntary empathic identity
with every mortal entity.
Each in his raw humanity gave all,
unbounded, unfettered, unshackled
attention, self-blessed and a blessing.
And later, each sat
upon sacred ground,
stripped of everything
but the one song
each creature sings
with its living breath.
That song is Oneness.
That song is Yes.
That song None Other.
That song is God and not-God.
That song is the soul’s outcrying sound.
And Saint Francis and Siddhartha
sang it with a smile.
“Do You Live Alone?”
Impossible!
Think of it!
Inside the walls
and joints of my house
are trillions of creatures,
some so small the ant and mouse
Think of it!
Inside the walls
and joints of my house
are trillions of creatures,
some so small the ant and mouse
and
solitary bee seem giants —
not to mention those who cuddle
close for warmth and crumbs
outside — thousands of species
of birds and insects,
rabbits, moles, creepy-crawlers
of all sorts, the neighbors’
cats and dogs and cows and geese
and sheep and horses.
Then inside are
the heavenly hosts
who welcome me to my table,
and earth angels in food and flower,
so open to intimacy and even union
with eye, nose, hand, lips,
organs, words, dreams and poems.
not to mention those who cuddle
close for warmth and crumbs
outside — thousands of species
of birds and insects,
rabbits, moles, creepy-crawlers
of all sorts, the neighbors’
cats and dogs and cows and geese
and sheep and horses.
Then inside are
the heavenly hosts
who welcome me to my table,
and earth angels in food and flower,
so open to intimacy and even union
with eye, nose, hand, lips,
organs, words, dreams and poems.
Besides
these, all
human colleagues
represented by each object:
the artists, laborers, crafters,
ancestors and friends behind
the presence of every beautiful
or useful or meaningful object
here.
human colleagues
represented by each object:
the artists, laborers, crafters,
ancestors and friends behind
the presence of every beautiful
or useful or meaningful object
here.
And
the forest of trees
that live on as furniture,
picture frames, and the very
structure that is home.
I share my tree house
with millions of unmet mates
gratefully.
Mealtime meditation
brings in even more, transient
guests — those myriad beings
who have been part of my food’s
journey here.
I neither live alone nor eat alone.
Sometimes I need to step outside
to taste a moment of relative
solitude, and even then
it’s an illusion: the stars are
as with me and alive
as the sleeping bugs in the ground
beneath my feet.
I can stretch in any direction
and bless it, knowing a companion
is there within touch.
And because I know that every bush
is a burning bush,
I ask the roses not to burn my lips
when I bend to kiss them.
Alla Renée Bozarth
The Book of Bliss
iUniverse 2000.
that live on as furniture,
picture frames, and the very
structure that is home.
I share my tree house
with millions of unmet mates
gratefully.
Mealtime meditation
brings in even more, transient
guests — those myriad beings
who have been part of my food’s
journey here.
I neither live alone nor eat alone.
Sometimes I need to step outside
to taste a moment of relative
solitude, and even then
it’s an illusion: the stars are
as with me and alive
as the sleeping bugs in the ground
beneath my feet.
I can stretch in any direction
and bless it, knowing a companion
is there within touch.
And because I know that every bush
is a burning bush,
I ask the roses not to burn my lips
when I bend to kiss them.
Alla Renée Bozarth
The Book of Bliss
iUniverse 2000.
Kairos Trinity icon (after Russian, Andrei Rublev, early 15th c.)
portion of a larger oil painting on canvas by Carole Baker
for Emmaus Way, Durham, North Carolina.
for Emmaus Way, Durham, North Carolina.
Below, sunset with full moon at the North Pole.
Images are from the Hubble Space Telescope, Eucharistic Dance at the
25th Anniversary of the Philadelphia Ordinations at the Church of the
Advocate, Chagall's Blue Violin, Dark Moon, Moon Tracks, Sunrise on Mt.
St. Helens and Dawn at the North Pole. All but the dance are from the
Internet.